soap box

actions speak louder than words,

but what if you can’t take

action or use your voice?

being able to take action

and speak up are privileges

that some people don’t have.


April is National Poetry Month!

April is national poetry month, which was news to me. I found out about this through twitter, and shortly discovered that Amanda Lovelace and Cyrus Parker were going to be giving prompts each day of April over on their instagram accounts. They took turns, one giving prompts on the even days (Cyrus) and the other giving them on the odds days (Amanda).

As an aspiring writer and lover of poetry, I decided to participate and created my own poems using their prompts. The prompt for April 5th is to take a cliche, make it your own.

decisions, decisions

“i’m you, but from the future.”

there are a million

questions i want to ask,

but one thought pushes to

the forefront of my mind:

you decided to keep living.


April is National Poetry Month!

April is national poetry month, which was news to me. I found out about this through twitter, and shortly discovered that Amanda Lovelace and Cyrus Parker were going to be giving prompts each day of April over on their instagram accounts. They took turns, one giving prompts on the even days (Cyrus) and the other giving them on the odds days (Amanda).

As an aspiring writer and lover of poetry, I decided to participate and created my own poems using their prompts. The prompt for April 4th to “i’m you, but from the future.”

jellyfish daughter

i have no spine:

i never tell you

what i think

or how i feel.

if i did you wouldn’t

like it at all.

so i remain silent,

just like you

taught me.


April is National Poetry Month!

April is national poetry month, which was news to me. I found out about this through twitter, and shortly discovered that Amanda Lovelace and Cyrus Parker were going to be giving prompts each day of April over on their instagram accounts. They took turns, one giving prompts on the even days (Cyrus) and the other giving them on the odds days (Amanda).

As an aspiring writer and lover of poetry, I decided to participate and created my own poems using their prompts. The prompt for April 3rd to write a poem that includes a jellyfish.

pushing the limits

maybe someday my

dreams will come true.

maybe my 11:11 wish

will finally be heard,

or maybe i’ll wish on the

right shooting star.

i’m beginning to lose hope;

how long can a person keep

going before they decide

that they just can’t anymore?


April is National Poetry Month!

April is national poetry month, which was news to me. I found out about this through twitter, and shortly discovered that Amanda Lovelace and Cyrus Parker were going to be giving prompts each day of April over on their instagram accounts. They took turns, one giving prompts on the even days (Cyrus) and the other giving them on the odds days (Amanda).

As an aspiring writer and lover of poetry, I decided to participate and created my own poems using their prompts. The prompt for April 2nd was shooting stars & clocks stuck on 11:11.

in retrospect

if i could go back to

that summer knowing

what i know now,

i wouldn’t shed a

single tear when you

backed out of

the driveway.

-it’s been five years


April is National Poetry Month!

April is national poetry month, which was news to me. I found out about this through twitter, and shortly discovered that Amanda Lovelace and Cyrus Parker were going to be giving prompts each day of April over on their instagram accounts. They took turns, one giving prompts on the even days (Cyrus) and the other giving them on the odds days (Amanda).

As an aspiring writer and lover of poetry, I decided to participate and created my own poems using their prompts. The prompt for April 1st to write about a holiday gone wrong.

my relationship with reading

Throughout elementary school and middle school, I was an avid reader. If I was waiting for class to start or had just finished my homework, you could rest assured that my nose would be in a book. Once I got into high school though, that completely changed. I started picking up books less and less until I stopped picking them up altogether. I wouldn’t even read the things that were required of me for my English / Literature classes, I would as many people did, rely on Sparknotes.

There are a couple of reasons that I stopped reading. One of those reasons was that I didn’t like that I had to read certain books within a certain amount of time. However, that wasn’t the main reason that I quit reading. The main reason that I fell into a reading slump that lasted for around five years was because I was dealing with depression. It wasn’t as bad when I was in high school because I was comfortable there: I had my friends, my town, and my teachers. When I got into college everything sort of shifted.

I went from a small town with less than thirty kids in each class, all of whom I had known for over a decade, to a massive university with classes of strangers that held almost four times as many people as I was used to. The size was enough to scare anyone during that transition, but add the fact that there were people whose views (political, religious, etc.) were different from my own.

It is during this time that I went through what I’ll call a quarter-life crisis. I began to question almost everything about my identity, and I began to question many of my thoughts and actions. I saw things that I had never seen before, like people in heated debates over the existence of God, because where I’m from that’s a given. My identity being questioned is what sent me into a depression that spiraled out of control, and I still don’t have many of the answers that I have been trying to find.

However, I have been trying to get myself back on track, and not let myself to continue to spiral. There are answers that I still don’t have, but regardless I am trying to find myself again, which is why I started picking up books. I used to turn to books as a form of entertainment; now, I turn to them for so much more. I turn to them for escapism, self-discovery, knowledge, understanding, and the comfort of knowing that I’m not alone.

In the comment section, I’d like to know what your relationship with reading has been like. So, if you’re comfortable sharing and would like to add to the discussion, please join in and comment; also, if you have made a post about this topic please leave a link to your post so that I can go and read it.

Lauren Hope

new year’s resolutions in march?

I am redoing my New Year’s Resolutions. I know what you’re thinking – IT’S MARCH. However, the expectations that I had for myself were outrageous due to my lifestyle and the state of my mental health. So, I have decided to start over. I don’t have to wait until next year, I can start right now. As the cliche goes, “there is no time like the present.”

 If you go back to my original post ( twenty-eighteen goals ), you will see that many of my goals were quite specific. I am altering these goals, they are as follows:

  1. Read something everyday. Any page length, any length of time, just read something – even if it’s just for class.
  2. Read 50 books this year. So far I am on track for this; however, if I am unable to complete this goal, I won’t be angry at myself.
  3. Write at least 1 blog post a week. I hope to do more, but this is the bare minimum.
  4. Begin writing a book (can be a poetry collection, short story collection, novella, or novel). There is no set way in which to start doing this, I simply need to start.
  5. Continue with journaling, and try different things in the journal. I want to use my journal to plan and do art; overall, I want the journal to be an accurate representation of my life.
  6. Start a YouTube channel. This is something that may or may not happen, depending on how my schedule is. Currently it is much easier to blog, so that’s what I’m doing, but I am hoping to branch out.
  7. Work on my health (both physical and mental). I have already started on this: I was put on anti-depressant and anti-anxiety medication, I have started journaling, and I have a gym membership. However, I need to actually go to the gym and I need to develop a healthier diet.
  8. Spend less pointless time on social media. I went two days without my phone for a class, and I think being off social media may help my mental health some, so this is something that I really want to try more.
  9. Stay on top of class work. I’ve been really good about that this semester, and hope to continue with to do so.
  10. Save money / spend less money. My paychecks have been pretty small this year, so after paying bills there isn’t a whole lot to spend… Does that count as spending less, since there is nothing to spend?

          So, starting in April, these will be my main goals. I hope that this time around I am able to stick to them, but if I happen to slip again, I hope that I keep trying and don’t give up.

 

 Lauren Hope